"you need to resign yourself to the awkwardness of life"

I have always loved this quote, and didn't know what it meant to me, but now I do.  Last night I was with a friend of mine.  We talked for a long time about everything.  Then he handed me a marker and said to write something meaningful in his car.  I said I couldn't think so I'd do it at the end of the night.  Right after I asked him if there were any quotes that he loved but didn't really know what they meant till a certain moment. 

After San Francisco I understood what the quote in the title means to me.  When I first heard it when I was 15 I loved the words.  I was young and had no idea what it meant.  I think all that has happened to me makes these words real.  

On the trip I did and experienced things I would have never ever done in my life.  I mean I sang on a crowded pier with people I met in one week.  A stranger offered us shelter, and I came inside.  I climbed hills, mountains and cliffs.  So this trip has shown me that if I completely let myself go, resign myself, good things will happen.  I have come to see that resigning myself to bad or awkward situations or letting go completely, has always been positive.  

 Normally I wait till I'm in an awkward position where I am forced to reveal that I have a disorder.  I think this means that I should just tell people before they have a chance to even notice.  letting go of the awkward situation and just introducing the elephant in the room.  

At the end of the night I decided this is what I wanted to write.  Knowing that it would be painful for me he wrote it for me and I just signed my name next to it.  

Good night!