I think this is the point

I realize now that I need to make some changes in my life. Today I was in Toronto took the bus and subway and was literally almost unable to walk. I could see all the people walking and talking without a thought, but here I was, every step I took was leaving me in agonizing pain. I just kept feeling sad almost wanting to cry, but I put a smile on for my family. All I answered when they asked "are you ok?" Was "I'm fine." Honestly I was dying both physically and emotionally. I think I really need to start using a walker. Will my friends accept me? They probably will stop inviting me cuz it won't fit in their cars. Or they don't want to be seen with me. I'm scared...