why

I always do this and it just ends up making me feel worse. I want people to invite me out but I am not comfortable with most social situations so I don't end up going. Then I realize how much fun I have missed out on and I start feeling miserble. A part of me wants to just do as much as I can while I'm physically able, but it's just getting too hard. I realize it's right to take what you can get, but somethings I just don't like doing. Ideally I want to only be part of social situations I'm comfortable with. I guess I lose either way. On the brightside maybe some disneyland tonight...